Undescribable

feelings that i felt when i want to frget about things that is sweet that just happen fr awhile is damn freaking hard.It just happen without me knowing that i already fall for you.I didnt even know that falling in love for you is something that is wrong and unacceptable.I dont know why but it is wrong.It is wrong for me to love someone that their passed life still haunting and yearning.I also didnt noticed that you also fall for me quietly and secretly.You know what i felt? I felt im the only girl in the world *lagu rihanna:) haha.Thank You for making me Happy & Felt Loved by someone.Especially someone like you that i never thought that i would fall for.It is something that i felt a year ago and Thank You for making me Feel that feelings onced more.BUT,you know we can't continue having this feelings.you know we can't be together.Its not that i dont love you.its just that It Is Hard for Us To Be Together.I don't want people around you and me hurts for our relationships.i just cant possibly take you just like that.I know that you love me alot perhaps more than i love you BUT i am scared if i hurt you.i am scared if i cant love you and mybe i would cheated on you.I just can't take care of something that is so precious in my life.I am scared.I dont want to be Jual Ikan.when you said that i already forget you,NO! its not true,its not like what you think.If i could just say that I never forget about you and wont stop loving you.It is hard for me.To be mean to someone that really loves you alot.I cant hurt someone that Loves You more than i do.eventhough she is your passed life,her heart and feelings never change towards you.Trust Me,she can make you happy onced again.more happy than ever.I cant promise you that i would make you happy.2 Days not texting you already make me half crazy and i dont know what to do.Whether im doing the right thing or not.should i just let you go?I dont even know.I am Speechless.I just wanted you to be happy.I know you loved me so much,you cant forget me and all.But,i just cant continue it anymore.Why dont we just forget about all this and be friends like before.Isn't it better that way.I Am Sorry For Making You Fall For Me.She really loves you more and more than i love you.I just want you to give her one last chance so she can be the best to love you once more.Just forget about your feelings towards me and go to her.It is better.It is also hard for me to make this type of decisions.I know you wouldn't do as i say,you wouldn't go to her but please just for me,as you loved me please give her one last chance to love you again like before.It is what i want.she knows you better than i do.This feelings that we are having can be fade away by times,trust me.But her feelings towards you would not fade away in times.you both been together for 1year and 3months.It took times for her to forget you.I know she cant forget about you eventhough she said she would.Hearing her stories and her feelings towards you makes me felt Guilty for loving you.i shoudn't be loving you and you also shoudn't be loving me.it just ain't right for me.I Am Truly Sorry.I am scared you would do stupid things like you did today if i kept forcing you.I just dont know.I really dont know.I am so mean towards the people that loves me so much.we just cant be together.Eventhough she said she would be okay if we are together but i know deep inside her heart she was Damn Broken.If i go with you and accept you,i would have that feeling of guilty towards her,Alot! So,it is better if we stay friends right?I know its hard,but it is more hard for her for losing you and accepting that you loved someone else and that is me.OhMaGod! We loved each other but we cnt be together.Why is this happening..i cant lose you but i also cant hurt  the person that loves you more than i do.