Is it true or not

I dont know what im doing.I dont know whether its a right thing or not.I dont know whether loving you is a correct thing for me to do.I really AM dont know.Someone..show me the correct path for me to walk through,Im lost in my own desires.We've been best friend since before and should we keep it that way or take a step ahead?Im sorry for letting you love me and im sorry to myself for cannot stop from loving you.Should i leave you behind?Should i just walk away from you?Should i explain to you.Can you see now? we're in love,and because of that we also start to fight.I hate fighting.I really do.we never even fight before when we were best friend.But now,take a look at our situation.we are mad in love with each other but can you see on the other side? that we starting to fight and argue for stupid things.Should i face it or back off from all this thing?Should i tell you that we should remain Best Friend like before or face this challenge and the possible for losing you forever?I cant possibly breaks your heart again because i know how much you love me.I know it and i can see it how afraid you are of losing me.But,i dont  want to argue with you,its freaking weird and it never happen between us before.I agreed about one saying,Once we're in love,we must face alot of possiblities.Im Sorry..

 I make mistakes.Thats what i do.I speak without thinking.I act without knowing.I drink so much i can barely walk.I'm a fantastic lover though
And an amazing friend.God knows i mean well.God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change.The courage to change the things i can and the wisdom to know the difference.


The minute you think of giving up,think the reason why you held so long.Fooled by my own desires,i twist my fate just to feel you.But you turn me towards the light.And you're one with me.Will you run with me?

You can close your eyes to the things you dont wanna see.But you cant close your heart to the things you dont wanna feel.Its not up to me anymore,if you want me in your life,you'll find a way to put me there.Who are you to judge the life i live in?I know im not perfect and i dont live to be.But before you start pointing your fingers,make sure your hands are clean.

Maybe its not always about trying to fix something broken.

Maybe its about starting over and creating something better.

I should never let my past life haunts me.

Maybe i should learn to accept something that is Best for me from now on.

Leaving whats broken is better than letting myself hurts trying to fix it.

i keep smiling all day and yeah:) it really helps my stressed go away.

Spirit of Love

we can only have the feelings inside our heart but we can never show it to each other

Undescribable

feelings that i felt when i want to frget about things that is sweet that just happen fr awhile is damn freaking hard.It just happen without me knowing that i already fall for you.I didnt even know that falling in love for you is something that is wrong and unacceptable.I dont know why but it is wrong.It is wrong for me to love someone that their passed life still haunting and yearning.I also didnt noticed that you also fall for me quietly and secretly.You know what i felt? I felt im the only girl in the world *lagu rihanna:) haha.Thank You for making me Happy & Felt Loved by someone.Especially someone like you that i never thought that i would fall for.It is something that i felt a year ago and Thank You for making me Feel that feelings onced more.BUT,you know we can't continue having this feelings.you know we can't be together.Its not that i dont love you.its just that It Is Hard for Us To Be Together.I don't want people around you and me hurts for our relationships.i just cant possibly take you just like that.I know that you love me alot perhaps more than i love you BUT i am scared if i hurt you.i am scared if i cant love you and mybe i would cheated on you.I just can't take care of something that is so precious in my life.I am scared.I dont want to be Jual Ikan.when you said that i already forget you,NO! its not true,its not like what you think.If i could just say that I never forget about you and wont stop loving you.It is hard for me.To be mean to someone that really loves you alot.I cant hurt someone that Loves You more than i do.eventhough she is your passed life,her heart and feelings never change towards you.Trust Me,she can make you happy onced again.more happy than ever.I cant promise you that i would make you happy.2 Days not texting you already make me half crazy and i dont know what to do.Whether im doing the right thing or not.should i just let you go?I dont even know.I am Speechless.I just wanted you to be happy.I know you loved me so much,you cant forget me and all.But,i just cant continue it anymore.Why dont we just forget about all this and be friends like before.Isn't it better that way.I Am Sorry For Making You Fall For Me.She really loves you more and more than i love you.I just want you to give her one last chance so she can be the best to love you once more.Just forget about your feelings towards me and go to her.It is better.It is also hard for me to make this type of decisions.I know you wouldn't do as i say,you wouldn't go to her but please just for me,as you loved me please give her one last chance to love you again like before.It is what i want.she knows you better than i do.This feelings that we are having can be fade away by times,trust me.But her feelings towards you would not fade away in times.you both been together for 1year and 3months.It took times for her to forget you.I know she cant forget about you eventhough she said she would.Hearing her stories and her feelings towards you makes me felt Guilty for loving you.i shoudn't be loving you and you also shoudn't be loving me.it just ain't right for me.I Am Truly Sorry.I am scared you would do stupid things like you did today if i kept forcing you.I just dont know.I really dont know.I am so mean towards the people that loves me so much.we just cant be together.Eventhough she said she would be okay if we are together but i know deep inside her heart she was Damn Broken.If i go with you and accept you,i would have that feeling of guilty towards her,Alot! So,it is better if we stay friends right?I know its hard,but it is more hard for her for losing you and accepting that you loved someone else and that is me.OhMaGod! We loved each other but we cnt be together.Why is this happening..i cant lose you but i also cant hurt  the person that loves you more than i do.

is this LOVE or WHAT

my my its been awhile since i last update my blog:) been busying with controlling feelings of taking spm's result,now i feel relieve oh yeahh i do :D im kinda happy with my result evnthough its not that good.yeahh facing the BIG family problems last year and facing spm.i guess my result worth it.what makes me happy is.I GOT A KISS FROM MY DAD.its been along time since i get that kiss from him.well you know,he's been busy working non stop so yeahh.and i love him so fucking much! *eventhough he's always busy wth work work and work.But,when i get my result,i know i can get better than that.and im quite sad i didnt get many A's like my spm trial.anything, i am BLESSED THANKFUL AND GREATFUL.Thank you god for hearing my prayers all this time.and i hope that my success wont stop here but this is just the THE BEGINNING OF STARTING.okay thats it.HAHA! malas nak tulis panjang2.nanti korang pun boring nk bace psal LOVE THINGY ni.anything,i love MY DAD and MUMMY so F MUCH.i'll be studying HARDER after this.i wont stop here but WILL keep on HOLDING BOOKS til i get my MASTER.and repay all your KINDNESS of TAKING CARE of me until now:')

What Should I Do?

What Should I Do

if my heart starting to love him

What Should I Do

if i want to be with him

What Should I Do

if i want to be in his heart

What Should I Do

if im starting to missed him

What Should I Do

if everyday i kept thinking of him

What Should I Do

if i want him to love me

What Should I Do

if i want him to feel like what i feel towards him

What Should I Do

if i want him to miss me like i miss him

 
What Should I Do

if i want to feel his touch of love

What Should I Do

if i want to own him

What Should I Do

if i dont want to lose him

What Should I Do

if i want to feel his warmthness

What Should I Do

if i cant stop loving him

What Should I Do

if i want to make him always be by my side

What Should I Do

if i cant fade this love of mine towards him

What Should I Do
if i want to be with him forever and ever 

When she was in gred 5

here's another story for me to share with you bloggers.i think its a  FUNNY story for me that i want you guys to laugh about :D this time its about my Beloved Mother hahahahaha omagod! i just cant stop laughing about it.she just story about her childhood and i totally laugh about this one incident where even my mum cant simply FORGET IT TIL NOW!!! seriously its something yang not many people does or.or perhaps its just only my mum who did it.at first,memang Kesian then Funny pun ade.hahaha! smpai i pergi tandas and buang air kecil tau tak!
okay lets start,i baring lah atas katil smbil dgar mp5 then mama msuk bilik and join the club! mama bbaring and start laughing for no reason.OMAGOD! she's gone mad! ahaha actually she was thinking about her   funny childhood that im about to story to you.my mum was laughing and all i could do is by asking 'da gile ke?' she stared at me and stop laughing and look quite serious and then she LAUGH againn.dalam kpale otak i is 'da gile ke ape org tua ni' hahahahahhahah! then she start storying.bila my mum was in GRED 5,mama i ade experience this thing with BABY CHICKEN! at this time mam i stay kat kampung,well orang dulu dulu kala katekan.ngee(: ade
 la anak ayam sekor ni mama saye nmpk jalan dh terhuyu hayang.mama saye ckap SAKIT anak ayam 
tu.bdw,cita cita my mum ni kononnye dulu nak jdik DOKTOR.so mama pun usap usap la anak ayam tu.AT
 FIRST,mama i ni usap usap la llame patu mama i ckap sndrian 'ayam,ko sakit ni yam,tkpe biar aku jage 
ko.jap tau aku bagi ko suntikan antibiotik tpi kne than sikit tau' mama i ni pun ambil lah pin yang tah dtgnye dri
 mne *mybe pin lampin kot,mwahahahaha :D then cucuk kat bontot anak ayam tu.mama i ckap die mengeluarkan bunyik mcm ni PEKOOOOOOOOOKKKKKKK!!!! bila mama i bagi suntikan antibiotik sebanyak 5KALI! mama i ni punyelah nakal die gi lah GALI tanah and masukkan anak ayam tu and TANAM HIDUP HIDUP! kejam kan kan? Masyallah.and then mama i ni gi plak KOREK and kasi suntikan antibiotik AGAIN! *aku pasti anak ayam tu dh lemah longlai. anak ayam tu dh la gemok bab kate my mum la en,hahaha sabar je.ops! back to the story(: after bagi suntikan buat kali ke-6 mama i tanam balik anak ayam tu and korek balik and again bagi suntikan smpai lah my mum ni dh naik boring main dgan anak ayam tu my mum Tanam For Good,ALIVE! she was thnkful that her mum(nenek i la) tak tahu about this killing thingy tht she just didt! bahahahah! actually,i dont concern about nenek i mrah my mum.i concern about the MUMMY TO THE BABY CHICKEN.buatnye dikokak ibu ayam tu if die nmpk anak die kne dere dgan teramat kejam.hahaha main kejar2 la my mum dgan ibu ayam tu kan kan?kesian adik beradik anak ayam tu en? hilang sorang anggota family dorang.Dalam keadaan yang menyayat hati plak tu.haihh mama mama.dh disuntik dgn pin pkai lampin,yang pi tanam tu buat ape.kesian ank ayam tu.tanam for once takpe.ni tanam korek tanam korek.seksa anak ayam tu.Hebatkan my mum jadik DOCTOR? doctor veterinar katekan.HAHAHAHA! can you guys imagine how bad and nakal is my mum? eventhough she looks so INNOCENT??? thats wht she's been thinking about and laugh to herself,how naughty she is before in childhood life.mama i ckap she regret but funny pon ade.Atlast,that anak ayam meninggal dengan keadaan yang amat mengerikan and dianiayai oleh my mum.hahahaah! my mum siap ckap lagi 'bile dah mati nnti mesti anak ayam tu enjek bontot aku mcm mne aku enjek bontot die dulu'.hahaha! its so damn fuking funni when i look at my mums expressions.well,yeahh:) thts the story about tht i wanna share with you guys bloggers.its just another syamira's notes for you guys to read and enjoy the laughters together:)


it mybe a hilarious story or mybe not but it does makes me laugh like shit! :D my mum was so funny and mean as well.but she was still a kids,they do hve they own way to be naughty.tht is my mums way.hahaha and about my naughty childhood? it;ll be COMING SOON(:  Thanks for reading another of my LIMITED EDITION STORIES.

My weird eyes thats always make people misunderstand

heres another stupid story :) haha pelik pelik.sumpah pelik dgan mata eden ini.why does people ALWAYS get misunderstand with my eyes.i tau mata i SEPET and like some people says mate i jugak SEXY bahahahaah tak tahu lah tang mne yang dorang nmpak keseksian mate i ni.bdw,THANKS for the criticize and pujian peeps :D tpi i just dnt get it knapa people always misunderstand dgan mate i and cara i pandang orang lain.ade lah orang ni prasan terlampau kononnya i jeling die padahal i just pandang dgan pandangan biase je.hahaha bende ni klau jadik sekali sekala its okay la.but ALWAYS!!! when i look at people with just an ordinary looks dorang thought i jeling but when i jeling dorang anngap its just an ordinary looks.hahaha stupid betol! pffftt anywayss ade junior i kat skolah smpai jumpe i and ask me whether i hate her or not or having any problems because she waas some kinda my adik angkat,i give her a weird look and say so not! why sist ckp mcm tu? then she said hari tu sist mcm jeling kat adik je,sist marah dgn adik ke? i was in silent for awhile then i LAUGHED! i explain to her that my eyes ni memang pelik and alot and alot peeps misunderstand dgn mate i.hahahaha she just gave me some kinda guilty looks then fr no reasons and so not my fault i apologized to her.this is not the first incident that happens to me so i really understand and get used to it.and some people hate me just by the way i look at them (which its just an ordinary look but thought as a bad looks,errr :| ) but  its so okayy with me (: i know i didnt have bad intentions to them.its just my eyes fault :| after this im so not gonna look at people fr a long long time.so PEEPS! please if i look at you and you think its some kind of BAD LOOK,just thought it was nothing,its just some thingy probs dgn mate i.hehe so please.imma NICE GIRL 0:) so theres no reason for me to jeling kat you guys especially SOMEONE YANG I DONT KNOW AND TAK RAPAT INSTEAD THERES A HOT GOSSIP ABOUT YOU THAT MAKES PEOPLE TALKIN' BAD ABOUT YOU :D TERJAH! TERJAH! (AYT TWINS I-NURUL NAQUIA :D ) but ape ape pun IM GREATFUL to have this perfect eyes and maybe weird abit :) it maybe weird but it is some kinda SEXYISH! woot woot ((: so yeah tht is wht about i wanna share to you guys about.its nothing special its just LIMITED EDITION STORIES :D

1 Perfect Best Friends

heyh yahh peeps! (: im so fucking bored right now and i dont know why im kinda sorta in the Bad Mood :| maybe its the full moon for me,ahaha! bdw,tday i just wanna story about my 1 Perfect Best Friends and that is Faten Emira.i've known her since like a few years ago and true we have alot and alot of Memories Together :D i love her like so fucking much! and of course i can't find the laughters and being the real me without these one peepmunks :) for me,without her in my life,it would be Unperfect and Weird.its funny when i remembered our old days in high school and especially How We Met.lets start frm the very bginning.i first met her is when it was my first day in government high school (which is my first time schooling in gvernment school) i was in the class named 1 Ikhlas.there it was my first time wearing tudung and seriously i look like Ustazah (thts wht faten said) hahaha and you know wht readers,faten emira didnt wear tudungs with her slumbery faces unshy. Bahahah! seriously its funny.its the first day of registration into classes.so i dnt know anyone and of course nt rlly good in speaking malay at school.my mum and fatens mum were sitting beside each other outside of the classes but me and her,we were sitting separately in the class because i dnt even knw anyone and ofcourse i am shy.then my mum shouted at me to sit beside fatens and so i did.i was shy and i dnt evn knw wht to tlked about wth her because fatens also in silent.suddenly we were talking and knowing each other.she was my FIRST FRIEND in that class and i nver thought that we would end being friends UNTIL NOW.well,now look at us,we were grown ups and no longer a high school kid.i was Blessed to Allah for giving me a friend like Faten Emira that is truly understands me deeply and stick to me as best friends until today at this moment im typing this post.she was one TRUE FRIEND :) i just cant lose her because it would be so damn freaking strange to me.she was the only person that can make me laugh as loudly as i want with her stupid jokes :D and yang paling terharu is she was the only person i am being the real me,the true me.i am GREATFUL to have a friend like FATEN EMIRA SALIM.and if she's reading this post,i just want her to know that i love her so much and i always thought you as my true Best Friend Forever.


  

searching for peace

When I'm with you,
eternity is a step away,
my love continues to grow,
with each passing day.

This treasure of love,
I cherish within my soul,
how much I love you...
you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,
I've never felt before,
with each touch of your hand,
I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,
whenever we part,
know I hold you dearly,
deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,
I pray you hold true,
"Forever And Always,
I Will Love You."

 

OMAGOD!!! IM IN LOVE

playing guitar just remind me of him 

there is no more love left in my heart

i wanna bought these thing UP HERE with my OWN MONEY

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starting new life without you

herm,its the same ol same ol.same boring holidays.my parents were busying with thre bussiness and here i am with my sis and bro accompanying me at home.haha.bored? duh!! so much.i cnt go jam and shopps due to not knowing hw to drive.err.well. idk when would i take my driving license.mybe later when i moved to kl i guess.taking driving license and working.haha yeahh talking about working,it'll be funny me wearing uniform.i just cant imagined it,and meet up with my friends.of course they would laugh at me,but its okay,thats what we call having the experienced right? haha i missed my besties alot and alot! its almost a year we havent meet up,especially FATEN EMIRA SALIM,daymd missed her and her stupidhilarious jokes. i promised,soon we'll meet up.no matter what happens.i just couldnt loose you and others of my bff!

Living a life with Hilarious BFF's

lately,im having a crazyy life with my bff's tht is mimo,naquia,rashyy and amirul.wth! they really made my day! aww just love you guys tons.can't believe lately i've been staying up late at night.chi chatting with 'em,especially amiruk the beruk! bahaha jyeahh the name that was made especially for him from me and emie.bahaha he really wants a unik name,well there it goes. MIRUK BERUK hahaha serves him right! naquia aka the twins of me has the same fate of life as me.we just chit chatting about his ex whch actually have the same attitude as my ex.well i dnt need to say the names,but i know people who close to me get to know who is it ;) OMFG!!!  guys are no difference,most of them are just the same.so girls! Don't trust guys easily!!